why why why

i don't understand myself.it's like at first i was so keen on keeping my distance from him.i would do anything to stay away from guys.telling myself that all guys are just the same.all guys are juz pain in arse and all that's ringing in their big brain is S-E-X.all they talked about is S-E-X.every little sweet thang they do is for S-E-X in return.yeah sure they'll take u home introduce you to their friends and family but only after S-E-X.you tell them you're hungry,yeah sure they'll take you out for lunch but only after S-E-X.and guys will never be the same if you don't give them S-E-X.they'll be acting all funny and the relationship is like so distance.

those words kept on jiggling on my mind and it had somewhat kept my distance from guys.until recently...

he is like one of those people that it hurts to be with them but yet it hurts even more that you're not with them, so getting hurt just a tad is ok.but a tad here is like it can cut down ur motivation rate from 100 to 50!!!but even that it's ok because supposingly he had never intend to do it.it's just yourself being all sensitive.as corny as it sounds,i can't keep myself away from him like i normally would with other guys.as corny as it sounds,i love him so much.he's like this one person that able to tolerate with my stubbornness and lackings.he's the type of person that make me wait and aware of it and willing to apologize for it.wait,that sounds rather dull but wtf i don't care (^_^) he's like this person that still kisses your forehead even though it's all pimply and rashy, and willing to hold your hand in public despite yourself being an ugly duckling.still dare to walk beside you even when you dress like a kid, not dressing up like a model carrying handbags (p/s i DO NOT carry handbag!).

every now and then i got myself thinking why did he choose to be with me when he has all those drop dead gorgeous looking models to choose from.why did he choose to embarass himself being with me when he can choose to impress by being with a pretty doll-faced.just don't get it sometimes...but then again,it shouldn't bother me,rite?i mean as long as he's there with me,i shall not worry right?i just wanna make it werk and i just wanna be good fer him.i guess that i'm so thankful to have him that i'm lack of words.now being corny-ish, see...told ya i'm outta words.