WTF is wrong with me??? ugh!!! i am so stupid, immature, and freak. why do i always do 1st think later??? but i don't regret though...i guess that its in my nature that no matter how wrong things can go, you should not regret. but omigod, why am i so stupid??? such a slow thinker & never thinking outside of the box. i nvr have any bad tots about any of friends, NEVER. unless, if they were caught lying or whatever. i jz x get it why do i feel like its ok i meet my friends everyday, even if its jz the 2 of us. for me, as long i'm clear of the situation, i'm cool. i believe that ex-bf can be one of our best friends, as long we are clear wit our feelings and bla bla bla. i know i'm selfish. but as long as he's aware of the WHOLE situation, it should b aight rite?
i know that i'm right but why do i feel so wrong???
one of my friend told me that if i don't love him, i hafta learn to say 'no'...i am trying, everyday i kept on reminding myself that i can 'no', telling myself that it's ok to say 'no'. i have lived 20 years of my life, and i can count just how many times have i said 'no' to anyone, including to my parents. the hardest about saying 'no' is that seeing and hearing how the other person react towards ur impulsion remarks. to me, 'no' is like a mean mean word. i know it's short and tact but its too short of an answer that sometimes it might feel like a slap on the face. the trouble with me is that i ALWAYS put myself in the other person's shoe, but ALWAYS in the wrong pair of shoes...*sigh*
silly me...
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