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b, i think that i'm in lurve with u more than u love me...it always happens that way. coz i'v found myself counting days that i actually spend with u. it relatively shows that i really care and really want this whole thing to werk out. u don't hafta worry about me finding someone else coz i don't think i can. i'm scared that ur just turned out to be just like one of those guys whom i'v encountered before...they're like even worst than filthy animals, they're like these arrogant freak!!! being all that fame when they realised that they're loved by their loved ones, taking them fer granted, treating them as a stand-in, turning themselves into womeniser and into this cold & heartless freakish filthy animals. how is it that loving you before was so much easier but day-by-day it just gets tougher and it felt as if ur miles aways - even though ur holding me in ur arms...i'm not hurt nor i am disappointed, not hurt neither, that i know this fer fact. i'm just scared, really2 scared as ever...

ppl said that it's not nice to love someone so much and so deep. i've tried not to, playing it all cool just like you played urs...but i can't. call me fool, call me stupid, call me possesive, call me crazy, call me cheesy, call me corny, i can't help it that every morning i'd wake up finding myself rummagin' through my fon - afraid that i might missed your call while asleep. i can't help it that i kept checkin' my fon everytime it lits. i can't help it that i kept on messagin' u tellin' u what i'm doing where i'm about and asking you what u were doin and whether or not u'v had ur lunch. sometimes i think that my past made me a little paranoid. maybe it has. and maybe i'm just too scared that i'll lose you along the way...